just some random life issues😝😭

So I've been super stressed lately with school (high school SUCKS, especially online), and I just couldn't take it. I just started crying today. It's been so hard, having to learn from home, not being able to see friends, and being cooped up in the house with my family 24/7. Like, they're great and all, but I miss my friends and being able to hang out with people whenever. so like if ya'll ever need to talk or anything, just DM or email me, or just put it in the comments. Because I get it you guys, quarantine sucks, and I honestly wouldn't mind talking to someone as well. Hang in there guys, and stay safe!

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Top 5 Favourite Animals (and why)

⓵Dog

I picked dogs because dogs are just the most adorable animals, and they are so loyal. They are definitely mans best friend.

⓶Fox (Fennec or Red)

I picked fox for my second because they are really cool animals, and they are super pretty. They are also really cute as babies.

⓷Cheetah

Cheetahs are super interesting animals, mainly because of how fast they can run. They can go up to 60 MPH, which is really fast! They are also really pretty and cool.

⓸Dolphin or Boto

You may not have heard of Botos, but they are basically just dolphins, only they have slightly longer noses, and they can also be BRIGHT PINK!! I also like dolphins because they are extremely smart.

⓹ Horse

Now, I love horses, although I'm not the hugest fan of riding them, mainly because I fell off one when I was younger. I still like them. I can ride them if they're calm, but I love petting, brushing and feeding them, and they can be really smart.

Books I Love

The Harry Potter Series (best books EVER!!)

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The Hunger Games Series (a bit gory but awesome)

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The Inheritance Series (basically a whole series about dragons)

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The Frostblood Series (super magical and a little bit of romancing)

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The Good Master (I didn't know until recently it is a several-book series)

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The Riley Mae Series (a little bit kiddish, but it's really good anyway)

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The Twilight Series (also a bit gory, although the movie is worse but really good)

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The Scorpio Races (about water horses and their speed and races. also a little romance)

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That's basically it. I have a lot more books that I love, but I can't name them all now, so if you want to hear them, just post it in the comments and I'll try giving you the names and a review.

Only When It Rains by Frank Walker and Astrid S.

"It's Only When it Rains That We Grow"

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I like and agree with this lyric a little bit. It's basically saying that only during the dark and bad times do we learn and grow and get better, and that's sort of true. We can learn from our mistakes and make things better. But we also grow and learn from the good days as well. We learn to be happy and love ourselves, while on the bad days we learn that not everything is fantastic, and that not everyone is always happy, but that if we truly try, we can get through those days, and come out even better and happier then before.

 

"I am what I am, an' I'm not ashamed. 'Never be ashamed,' my ol' dad used ter say, 'there's some who'll hold it against you, but they're not worth botherin' with.'"

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Rubeus Hagrid

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Just be yourself, people!! Like he said, you can't truly ever change 

who you are, so accept that and love yourself.

Lonely 🎄

Frost crystallizes on the trees and leaves

Snow drifts from the dark sky to the ground

The house smells of peppermint and chocolate

Christmas is near

And yet it still feels lonely

We are all planning, baking

And buying presents

Singing Christmas carols and songs

Putting up the tree and lights

Christmas is near

And yet it doesn’t feel as festive as it should

We talk to family

But only on calls and facetime

We see our friends

But only from afar

It feels like Christmas

But a disappointing Christmas

No sitting in front of the fire with friends

After sledding outside for hours

With a cup of hot chocolate

No going to the mall with friends

To pick out clothes for the holidays

Its Christmas

But not the same

But we can stay positive by remembering

That home is where the heart is

And that at least we have our parents and siblings

So we can buy each other presents

And facetime, and call, and text

And eventually, we will be able to see each other in person

Once more

Random romance thoughts😘😆

When you see a guy you like in preschool or kindergarten, you would usually giggle and then go talk to him, and then you'd be walking around the playground holding hands and sharing PB&J sandwiches. Then a day later he'd say something like, ‘I don't like you anymore, you wear pigtails’ and walk away, and you'd act all upset for about 3 seconds, then you'd be off running around again and all happy. I'm 15 and have never dated, so I’m not really a big romancer, but WHAT?! How are you so happy already? Then it comes to grades 1-3, where you see the guy you like and start blushing and then you whisper to your friend and they whisper back and the whole class you're passing notes about him. And then the boy looks at you and catches you staring so you turn bright red and look away. And if he finds out about your crush he teases you for days about it and his and your friends start singing the K.I.S.S.I.N.G. song and you're both like ‘ Ew, gross!’.  Then comes grades 4 to 6 where you suddenly have the confidence to tell him everything, so you write him a note or get your friend to tell him and he laughs and jokes around and acts disgusted. You start chasing him around the playground trying to get his attention and he just runs from you. Then there's the lovely Middle School hell-hole, where the hormones kick in and the feelings you have increase tenfold, and you literally can't even look at him. Like, for the guys who don't understand what goes through a girl's head in those moments, here's a pretty accurate representation: “OMG! He's sitting at the desk across from me! I can't look at him. What if I look at him and he's looking at me? Then he'll think I've been staring at him this whole time and he'll think I'm a stalker and he'll never talk to me again! But I have to take one peek OH MY GOD he's looking at me I'm going to die!!... et cetera. We females can be dramatic sometimes, I'll admit it, and we're always thinking of the worst possible scenarios, but you never know what could happen right?

Here's a funny yet depressing story of how I got rejected. I had a crush on a guy, let's call him Cody. This guy Cody had a girlfriend, but that wasn't stopping me. I didn't know a lot about him, only that he had a girlfriend and (I think) smoked. I found him pretty cute, and, well, tbh, I still do. So I wrote him a note telling him I liked him and asked him what he thought.  I got my friend to give it to him and next thing you know I hear laughing, and then I looked over as he said “ haha you're funny. You're obviously kidding!”. I told him several times that I wasn't (I really don't know where my confidence came from) But he still didn't believe me, so I gave up.

So basically what I'm saying is, girls! You probably won't find the right guy until you're at least 17, although if you're mature enough to truly understand love, then you're probably old enough. I say probably because anything can happen, but you probably won't find your soulmate in middle school, and if you think he's the perfect guy because you guys have done it together, leave him! Although if you truly love him obviously don't leave him. But loving someone is not the same thing it's doing it with something! If you've been dating long enough, and you're sure he doesn't want you for your body, and he loves you for you, he's the guy for you. Marry him or don't, but if you truly love him, and can forgive him without him seducing you or threatening you, then he's the one.

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I really don't know where all this came from. I was sitting in bed and I decided to start writing. It was like 9:30, so I was kind of tired, but once I come up with something or an idea pops into my head, I have to write it down or I'll be up all night thinking about it. Reading it over now, I realize, this is really deep! What was going through my head? Anyway, thanks for reading and everything.